I grew up thinking my life was all about the destination. I had to do everything in my power, and then some, to get to heaven. I spent so much time focused on making it to heaven that I didn’t pay any attention to my daily life. I didn’t take care of myself (that didn’t matter…when I was in heaven all would be great), I lacked any kind of self-esteem or self-worth because I was so focused on how I was going reach my goal that I didn’t pay any attention to my own soul. I also emotionally skipped over a lot of great moments in my life. I was there, I remember them and thank goodness I can take it all in now and appreciate them, but at the time any sense of self-discovery was missing.
The photo on this page is of me. It was taken a couple years ago on a nice summer evening, after a long walk. It really has been only a few years that I’ve been focusing on the daily journey in my life of self-acceptance and taking time to “stop and smell the roses.” Now my life is about the journey, not the destination.
In 2013 my mother spent a few days in the hospital. Initially she went there because she had food poisoning, but within 24 hours the doctors and nurses knew that…
My mom was originally diagnosed with dementia in 2013; but about a year later, I was talking to her doctor and she was talking about my mom’s Alzheimer’s diagnosis. So…
Building my own sense of self-esteem is still a process. I don’t remember when I really started paying attention to my sense of self and how I felt about me,…
I had a therapist once who was very studied in Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy and the first time I told him I was “trying to find myself” he looked around…